I don't know. [Although that's not really true, he sort of maybe has an idea about it, but it's not something he really wants to share. Sort of. He doesn't know.]

I mean, the guy I was, I've kind of already had to deal with all the stuff he was doing? And that sucked way more than this, because it was like, realizing I screwed up and having to deal with that. It's easier because he just kind of... thought differently. Than me.

[If that makes ANY sense.]

I mean, do you want to turn me and kill me?